04/12/2023, 18:10 - Cat: Ahmad ate all the food sorry 😞
04/12/2023, 18:11 - Cat: Better pick something else up, all my stuff is packed away
04/12/2023, 18:12 - +44 7843 771944: 👍
04/12/2023, 18:13 - +44 7843 771944: Back, getting ready now. Let you know when leave but need find a lock
04/12/2023, 18:46 - Cat: Thank you ❤️
05/12/2023, 08:18 - Cat: Thank you for last night ❤️❤️❤️❤️
05/12/2023, 08:18 - Cat: I'm so sick, so forgive me if itbdidnt show
05/12/2023, 08:18 - +44 7843 771944: Its ok. I love you ❤️
05/12/2023, 08:19 - +44 7843 771944: It's ok. Leon's off sick and Dan is late cus he's ill
05/12/2023, 08:19 - +44 7843 771944: It's ok. You're my world
05/12/2023, 08:19 - Cat: But my love batteries are back to full and I feel so much better when I'm loved up 😍
05/12/2023, 08:20 - Cat: Also, feel free to hate the dog 🐕...... I think it's a massive bonding glue with musti 😂
05/12/2023, 08:22 - Cat: Just don't be aggressive around him cuz he will fight u back and he can be strong.  I keep telling ahmad its such a great tool for emotional regulation an attack dog
05/12/2023, 08:51 - +44 7843 771944: Not much of a tool if you can't regulate your emotions. Then you're just in danger of being savaged by an attack dog 🤷
05/12/2023, 08:54 - +44 7843 771944: You're not wrong. I'm glad Attila makes you happy and helps you talk to people though ❤️.
05/12/2023, 08:54 - +44 7843 771944: Glad to hear it. Try see you soon. Love you
05/12/2023, 14:44 - Cat: Love you too 🤗
05/12/2023, 14:47 - Cat: Interesting science meeting update. Jan told me that the cto only approved a spot insurance for our prototype app and then the dejops guy tells me that rhr cto is on board with my plan. And that I am correct in that Jan is in no rush to get the prototype working and that they will start a new working group for thr product which only requires one exec for approvals. Rhr cto approves everything I want to build and is behind me, and it seems they know that Jan is rhe blocker
05/12/2023, 14:51 - +44 7843 771944: I was just shouting at Dan and Pin in the office so my mood is shit. They've agreed to pay for that batch of 10 lessons and my pay review is due in February.
If it doesn't match inflation I'll actively search for another job. 

Glad they know Jan's a fucking idiot.
05/12/2023, 15:04 - Cat: February is still awhile away. Make sure u be taken ur holidays and don't work yr ass off to get the queued jobs done. I imagine he will try to squeeze u out as much as possible before that convo resumes. Be calm and professional, don't show him that u re mad,because it gives away how much u like and care about this job <This message was edited>
05/12/2023, 15:05 - Cat: He needs to think that u don't give a fuck cuz they rr plenty of other jobs around ud equally like
05/12/2023, 17:01 - Cat: U OK fab?
05/12/2023, 17:02 - +44 7843 771944: Yeah I suppose so, wanna call after Mel drops heater off ❤️? She's due any min.
05/12/2023, 17:03 - Cat: I'm not sure, I'm soooo sick, can barely breathe, let alone talk
05/12/2023, 17:03 - Cat: Happy to text though
05/12/2023, 17:10 - +44 7843 771944: Sound, I have electrician here all day Thursday. Probs come to you tomorrow night then head back same time as usual in the morning.
05/12/2023, 17:10 - Cat: Don't let Dan ruin ur evening my beloved ❤️❤️❤️. He is a business man with very good social skills, which makes him "nice" but he is still the owner of a business in the uk sweat shop sector, therefore his behaviour is to be expected. You always idealize evrryone initially and after a while resent them and get angry. He doesnt deserve your energy. He is just a boss. Bosses use human resources to entich themselves. When u get mad remember It's common to jump jobs in ur field and often moving is the only way to get a pay rise. You have tons of other options and you re only getting better at your job with each new experience 🤗🤗🤗🤗💖💖💖💖❤️❤️❤️🤗🤗🤗🤗
05/12/2023, 18:05 - Cat: Mel still there?
05/12/2023, 18:06 - +44 7843 771944: Yeah. Told her we're together
05/12/2023, 18:08 - Cat: Oh, I didn't realise she didn't know
05/12/2023, 18:08 - Cat: How did that go?
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05/12/2023, 20:24 - Cat: https://youtu.be/8MZJNDBTFco?feature=shared
05/12/2023, 20:24 - Cat: This is just thr part on the ottomans if u need distraction
05/12/2023, 20:25 - Cat: It's the only part that is interesting for u I think. But don't feel obliged, I couldn't care less if u watch it or not.  Its just that I think ud enjoy it
05/12/2023, 20:37 - Cat: Lol, I started watching it. Itd even better than I remembered 🥰
05/12/2023, 20:55 - Cat: The ottomans invented cnanons and also dug tunnels to invade Belgrade!!!!!
05/12/2023, 21:00 - Cat: Thr mosque suleiman built was also the community center with hospital school and library
05/12/2023, 21:02 - +44 7843 771944: Here you are we can watch that together
05/12/2023, 21:08 - Cat: Yay 🥳🥳🥳🥳
05/12/2023, 21:36 - +44 7843 771944: Done my diary. My overall mood for the past 2 days has been a 3 out of 10 :-/. I suppose a funeral and then a betrayal / pay dispute with shouting will do that.
05/12/2023, 22:28 - +44 7843 771944: Hope you feel better tonight. Love you xxx
05/12/2023, 23:54 - +44 7843 771944: I love you Catherine. Thank you for being there for me and for everything. Hope your dreams are sweet. Thinking of you ❤️
06/12/2023, 09:15 - Cat: Morning my favorite person in the whole world 💖
06/12/2023, 09:15 - Cat: I'm really really sick, can't even work or rake care of the dog
06/12/2023, 09:16 - Cat: Stuck in bed with really bad flu
06/12/2023, 09:16 - Cat: Do u think u could walk the dog for me later?
06/12/2023, 09:18 - +44 7843 771944: I'll do my best
06/12/2023, 09:18 - +44 7843 771944: Morning Catherine ❤️
06/12/2023, 09:18 - +44 7843 771944: If you need me bring anything let me know. Will come straight to you from work
06/12/2023, 09:29 - Cat: Thank you ❤️
06/12/2023, 14:02 - Cat: Just found out my kitchen fitters are also off sick, so won't be getting the new kitchen till Monday now 😔
06/12/2023, 14:03 - Cat: at least we can cook another big batch of lasagne or something before they rip it out
06/12/2023, 14:11 - Cat: Was just told I didn't get the job with the alge company because my pair programming wasn't good enough 😔 that really hurts, I did complete the challenge it was just really stressful doing it on someone else screen with the time lag and lots of pressure. I still feel really shit about it
06/12/2023, 14:11 - Cat: Someone clearly must have done a better job
06/12/2023, 14:25 - +44 7843 771944: Pair programming is shit anyway. You don't need that job, you need something challenging, not to move to more of the same ❤️
06/12/2023, 15:01 - Cat: No it was a good job
06/12/2023, 15:02 - Cat: Still beating myself up
06/12/2023, 15:02 - Cat: But really, it was bad luck that they interviewed someone else who could do it faster. I did alright. And I told them i have pair programming
06/12/2023, 15:02 - Cat: Hate
06/12/2023, 15:02 - Cat: I coming soon?
06/12/2023, 15:03 - Cat: Finally managed to take a shower, but I still need to find the energy to change my bedding
06/12/2023, 15:03 - Cat: And ideally bathe thr dog, but I can't do that on my own today, qay to knacketed
06/12/2023, 15:07 - +44 7843 771944: Bout half 4 probably. Need get those bits on the way too
06/12/2023, 15:20 - Cat: Yea, soap and washing up liquid pls
06/12/2023, 15:20 - Cat: Go to aldi I think is cheaper and less traffic
06/12/2023, 15:21 - Cat: Managed to bathe the dog
06/12/2023, 15:21 - Cat: He hates it
06/12/2023, 15:36 - Cat: Any chance u can come sooner?
06/12/2023, 16:02 - +44 7843 771944: No
06/12/2023, 16:13 - Cat: Cam u also get a scourer plz for washing up?
06/12/2023, 16:13 - Cat: Also, are u OK?
06/12/2023, 16:41 - Cat: It's open
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07/12/2023, 11:09 - Cat: Well thanks I guess for not sending this to me this morning ❤️
07/12/2023, 11:10 - Cat: I love waking up next to you soooo much 🤗
07/12/2023, 11:10 - Cat: Sorry I'm feeling so shitty, I really miss spending time with u just goofing around
07/12/2023, 11:10 - Cat: Hopefully soon, once u re over that flu
07/12/2023, 11:28 - Cat: How u feeling?
07/12/2023, 11:29 - +44 7843 771944: You were cute and I felt protective, not irritated 😘
07/12/2023, 11:29 - +44 7843 771944: Same 😊
07/12/2023, 11:29 - Cat: Yayyy progress 😂
07/12/2023, 11:29 - Cat: Miss u 💝
07/12/2023, 11:29 - +44 7843 771944: It's ok. We're sick, it's fine 😘
07/12/2023, 11:30 - +44 7843 771944: I'm about the same as earlier 🤷
07/12/2023, 12:05 - Cat: That's good, maybe ull be lucky
07/12/2023, 12:05 - Cat: I'm still pretty poorly
07/12/2023, 12:05 - Cat: Managed to finally take the dog out, he was so greatful but now I'm knackered
07/12/2023, 12:06 - +44 7843 771944: Was hoping you start feeling better as the day went on.
07/12/2023, 12:06 - +44 7843 771944: That's good at least, I bet he was. You go far? Was it ok?
07/12/2023, 13:06 - Cat: Nope, now temp is down but I'm having constant coughing fits
07/12/2023, 13:26 - +44 7843 771944: Glad you're feeling a bit better. I'm feeling worse now. Gonna have a shower when they've gone hopefully make me feel a bit better
07/12/2023, 14:19 - Cat: Oh shit...   how are u now? Honestly this flu is sooooo bad, but I think its survivable maybe
07/12/2023, 14:19 - Cat: I'm still feeling like shit have n illusions
07/12/2023, 14:20 - +44 7843 771944: Illusions? Like tripping?
07/12/2023, 14:21 - Cat: No no I meant to say have no illusions
07/12/2023, 14:21 - Cat: As in I'm still miserable and unable to look after u if u go down with flu too soon
07/12/2023, 14:21 - Cat: I'm not over it yet
07/12/2023, 14:21 - Cat: IMG-20231207-WA0003.jpg (file attached)
07/12/2023, 14:22 - Cat: don't say anything to him, promise me. I'm just sharing so u know and have no anxiety
07/12/2023, 14:23 - Cat: I was kinda tripping last night in my fever coma
07/12/2023, 14:23 - +44 7843 771944: I'll be ok, strong like vood 💪
07/12/2023, 14:25 - Cat: I was kinda hoping I'd be better and u start coming down with it the weekend, but I guess its better if u re not sick. U can go work and see me after work tomorrow right
07/12/2023, 14:39 - +44 7843 771944: If I'm well enough to go to work I will, if I'm not ill probably just come to you after I get up ❤️
07/12/2023, 14:39 - +44 7843 771944: What did he say before that please?
07/12/2023, 14:40 - +44 7843 771944: To make you say, "don't interfere "
07/12/2023, 15:34 - Cat: I honestly have nothing to hide, but I'm still finding this a bit controlling tbh. I didn't say anything that would upset u but I imagine some of the things he said are quite personal to him and I'd rather not share
07/12/2023, 15:34 - Cat: Hope that's ok
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07/12/2023, 16:34 - Cat: OK so you re mad because I spoke to him? U know we had a convo about his stuff
07/12/2023, 16:34 - Cat: It started there, the whole context
07/12/2023, 16:36 - Cat: I barely reply, can't u see that? He wanted some closure talk, so I gave it. Saves me having to do it in person, which may I remind u. U were cool with last weekend. I chose not to do it cuz I couldn't be arsed. But he asked me basically in what way he wasn't enough and I explained. As cold and rationally as u would expect from me
07/12/2023, 16:36 - Cat: Why would I even have shared this if I speak to him behind ur back all day long?
07/12/2023, 16:37 - Cat: You deleted this message
07/12/2023, 16:38 - Cat: U are being borderline and I will send u the convo, but I want to see ur face when u realise you were being a controlling penis plz
07/12/2023, 17:04 - +44 7843 771944: I realised that, that's why I deleted it 😔
07/12/2023, 17:04 - +44 7843 771944: I'm not saying you do
07/12/2023, 17:05 - +44 7843 771944: That, without the context of what came before sounds like he's trying to poison you. Like he always does. I'm trying to reign myself back from being borderline. That's why I deleted what I sent.
I love you.
07/12/2023, 17:05 - +44 7843 771944: You don't need to
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07/12/2023, 17:17 - +44 7843 771944: Please do what you said you would, and cut ties. This isn't closure. It's him trying to poison and steal you. He isn't getting it. Please. Cut him off. For my sanity. ❤️
07/12/2023, 17:21 - Cat: IMG-20231207-WA0006.jpg (file attached)
07/12/2023, 17:22 - Cat: OK. I won't share the whole thing, because basically he went out dating someone and then messaged me again asking me what is "enough"
07/12/2023, 17:22 - Cat: So I explained to him what you have that nobody else has
07/12/2023, 17:22 - Cat: And this is personal and really none of ur business my beloved but I was cold and rational about it
07/12/2023, 17:23 - +44 7843 771944: Ok so now it can be over right? He's talking about fucking you. Just end it. Please
07/12/2023, 17:23 - Cat: I was implying that I had this with you and then he days I deserve better rhan u or him, and I said don't interfere
07/12/2023, 17:24 - Cat: That's why I didn't send it. But as u can see he is moving on and I made it clear that I'm right where I belong with you
07/12/2023, 17:24 - +44 7843 771944: Still trying to poison you
07/12/2023, 17:24 - +44 7843 771944: Failing to move on
07/12/2023, 17:24 - Cat: So yes I won't respond, but I wish I could just send him the fuxking extension leads and pot plant
07/12/2023, 17:26 - +44 7843 771944: Can't you just block him. He's not gonna stop trying. Or I can stop him.
Anyway. I'm going to distract myself to stop borderlining. Will is here now. Thank you for understanding and being there for me. I love you
07/12/2023, 17:26 - Cat: I love you too
07/12/2023, 17:27 - Cat: I will block him. Means hos shit will have to stay here, but really he is not giving up
07/12/2023, 17:27 - Cat: IMG-20231207-WA0007.jpg (file attached)
07/12/2023, 17:27 - +44 7843 771944: No he isnt
07/12/2023, 17:27 - Cat: I really tried to end our 3 year friendship amicably but it's impossible
07/12/2023, 17:27 - +44 7843 771944: So block him. And don't unblock him. It'll do us all a fucking favour
07/12/2023, 17:28 - Cat: Done
07/12/2023, 17:28 - +44 7843 771944: Thank you. If you want parcel the stuff up. I can drop it off for you.
07/12/2023, 17:29 - +44 7843 771944: That's not a good idea, I can post it for you
07/12/2023, 18:09 - Cat: Honestly I don't know how to get him all the shit, like house plant and the clothed rack without a car.... well I doubt he needs them right away. I will keep them for a year or so before contacting him again about it. Is that alright wirh u?
07/12/2023, 18:10 - +44 7843 771944: I thought he said he didn't want them back?
07/12/2023, 18:11 - Cat: Only the plant and the electrix things he mentioned, but I still feel bad, I got boots jeans and a jacket in that closet too
07/12/2023, 18:11 - Cat: I'm telling u he was so keen to move in ASAP that it drove me away
07/12/2023, 18:12 - +44 7843 771944: It's his fault all his shits there then.
07/12/2023, 18:12 - Cat: Yeppp I didn't ask for any of it and said I hated that his stuff is everywherr
07/12/2023, 18:12 - +44 7843 771944: So there you go
07/12/2023, 18:12 - Cat: He also had kitchen stuff but the other day attila destroyed them
07/12/2023, 18:12 - Cat: I haven't told him as I expected he'd forgotten about them anyways
07/12/2023, 18:13 - +44 7843 771944: He doesn't give a shit about the stuff. It's just an excuse to poison you or keep in touch.
07/12/2023, 18:13 - Cat: Yea Probably. Will just have to keep it in my closet indefinitely then 🙄
07/12/2023, 18:14 - +44 7843 771944: It won't be indefinitely don't worry :-)
07/12/2023, 18:15 - Cat: Omg my cough is soo bad
07/12/2023, 18:15 - Cat: I feel like I'm dying again
07/12/2023, 18:15 - +44 7843 771944: Same
07/12/2023, 18:20 - Cat: Oh fab ❤️❤️❤️❤️
07/12/2023, 18:21 - Cat: I was gonna invite u over whilst u re not in a total coma, but tbh I'm not sure it's a good idea
07/12/2023, 18:22 - Cat: I'm coughing constantly. Really non stop
07/12/2023, 18:22 - Cat: I'm happy to have to u home while u re sick, but I'm scared my cough will make u angry. Its really bad, I sound like a grandma
07/12/2023, 18:23 - +44 7843 771944: I'm sorry about that before. That was me being a psycho
07/12/2023, 19:21 - Cat: Hey plz can u make a note somewhere. I reaaaally need to take ahmad to the gp
07/12/2023, 19:22 - Cat: To get hid referred for audiology again and also growth hormones and possibly testosterone.  He is getting old enough now, and I don't want to miss the window where they have to inject the hormone
07/12/2023, 19:22 - Cat: This is quite urgent but I keep pushing it aside in ny head
07/12/2023, 19:23 - Cat: It's even worse tonight than last time when u were so mad
07/12/2023, 19:26 - +44 7843 771944: I have headphones if I can't hack it, I'll be fine tomorrow ❤️. It was a completely irrational and unreasonable demand and I'm sorry for trying to drive you away.
07/12/2023, 19:26 - +44 7843 771944: You registered?
07/12/2023, 19:26 - +44 7843 771944: Him
07/12/2023, 20:38 - Cat: I think so but I think I need to go to surgery to drop off some letter with his address which I don't have
07/12/2023, 20:44 - Cat: Just found out energy prices meant to rise another 8 quid per month per household starting january
07/12/2023, 20:52 - +44 7843 771944: He registered at dentist?
07/12/2023, 20:53 - +44 7843 771944: Or anywhere else?
08/12/2023, 05:57 - Cat: Nope
08/12/2023, 06:48 - Cat: Morning 🤗
08/12/2023, 06:48 - Cat: How u feeling today?
08/12/2023, 07:02 - +44 7843 771944: Not great, but might go work. Just woke up, let you know what I'm doing when I know. You ok? 
How're you feeling?
08/12/2023, 09:22 - Cat: Still not great, weak and constant cough but at least no more fever
08/12/2023, 09:22 - Cat: U better?
08/12/2023, 10:14 - +44 7843 771944: Nah, not gone work, gonna sleep a bit more then think of heading to you ❤️
08/12/2023, 10:15 - +44 7843 771944: Ahmed doctors
08/12/2023, 10:35 - Cat: I am still coughing the whole time fab, not sure that's a good idea 😔
08/12/2023, 10:36 - Cat: I have more work to do with the kitchen this weekend as well and don't want to burden u
08/12/2023, 10:36 - Cat: Maybe ull get better quicker if u stay home 😕
08/12/2023, 10:37 - +44 7843 771944: We were supposed to spend the weekend together as you think we're growing apart.
08/12/2023, 10:59 - +44 7843 771944: I'm not as bad as you I don't think. 
I can help a bit I think
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08/12/2023, 11:31 - Cat: Thanks for coming to help with this. Sorry I'm still feeling really miserable 😞
08/12/2023, 11:31 - +44 7843 771944: It's ok, just packing now
08/12/2023, 11:33 - +44 7843 771944: You sort Ahmed doctors out?
08/12/2023, 11:36 - Cat: No its an ongoing thing, I probably need to go to the surgery. Received a letter today that I can use, ifs on the cooker. But I have to get a bit better first
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09/12/2023, 20:30 - Cat: https://youtu.be/nTWXfo7narw?feature=shared
11/12/2023, 11:50 - Cat: U OK?
11/12/2023, 12:42 - +44 7843 771944: Yeah, just been busy is all.
How's it going?
11/12/2023, 13:08 - Cat: Same shit different day 🥴
11/12/2023, 13:08 - Cat: How bout u?
11/12/2023, 13:21 - +44 7843 771944: Fucking utterly wank just missed my fucking DBT call
11/12/2023, 13:21 - +44 7843 771944: Fuck
11/12/2023, 14:05 - Cat: Fuck sake
11/12/2023, 14:05 - Cat: Im so sorry my beloved, I know how skint u are ❤️❤️❤️
11/12/2023, 14:05 - Cat: Dan's doing or just forgot the time?
11/12/2023, 14:06 - Cat: Look, if it helps in any way
11/12/2023, 14:07 - Cat: I'd rather have u happy and ur head working OK than anything else
11/12/2023, 14:07 - Cat: Let me know what I can do to help and if I can I will
11/12/2023, 15:16 - +44 7843 771944: Didn't have headphones in so didn't hear call.
11/12/2023, 15:32 - Cat: Ah OK, that happens. Still sucks, but at least no new bs from him
11/12/2023, 15:32 - Cat: I hope u re well, I'm a bit worried about u and wish I could help more with whatever it is u re going through
11/12/2023, 15:33 - Cat: Hopefully next week I'll be back to normal and can nurture u back like u nurtured me while I was sick. Builders commented that my cough is terrible or awful or something but apart from that I feel almost back to normal
11/12/2023, 16:26 - Cat: U re acting kinda strange I'm a bit worried
11/12/2023, 16:27 - Cat: Do you want to talk tonight or rather not? Can't speak much, still have bad cough but if it helps we could do obnoxious faces and kisses to each other?
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11/12/2023, 17:14 - Cat: U OK wirh me binging how to become a cult leader on Netflix or do u also wanna see it? I'll put it on the list if so
11/12/2023, 17:18 - +44 7843 771944: Nah crack on
11/12/2023, 17:19 - Cat: 😘
11/12/2023, 17:22 - +44 7843 771944: 😘
11/12/2023, 18:32 - Cat: Fucking builders threw mu brand new oven away
11/12/2023, 18:32 - Cat: He says oh don't worry, thr quote included a brand new one
11/12/2023, 18:32 - Cat: I'm not sure if I had a new oven quoted initially
11/12/2023, 18:32 - +44 7843 771944: You're joking
11/12/2023, 18:32 - Cat: He says it was in the initial Howden quore
11/12/2023, 18:32 - +44 7843 771944: Fucks sake
11/12/2023, 18:32 - +44 7843 771944: That was a good oven
11/12/2023, 18:33 - +44 7843 771944: Is it fucked?
11/12/2023, 18:33 - Cat: IMG-20231211-WA0029.jpg (file attached)
11/12/2023, 18:33 - +44 7843 771944: Or salvagable
11/12/2023, 18:33 - Cat: He says rhe scrap man took it an hour after the threw it ok the skip
11/12/2023, 18:33 - Cat: Which sounds plausible, but fuck sake
11/12/2023, 18:33 - +44 7843 771944: Fucks sake
11/12/2023, 18:33 - Cat: I wish I had seen them take it out
11/12/2023, 18:33 - Cat: I was working
11/12/2023, 18:33 - +44 7843 771944: Yeah
11/12/2023, 18:35 - +44 7843 771944: 🤷 dunno what say sorry, fucks sake. 
Just try make sure they have the water running the right way off the drying board into the sink or that'll do your head in forever
11/12/2023, 19:05 - Cat: Yea will have to remember
11/12/2023, 19:06 - Cat: Hope u re having a nice evening. My takeaway and cult documentary were great 😘
11/12/2023, 19:10 - +44 7843 771944: Is ok. Just about stick a film on. 
Glad you're having fun. 
Love you endlessly ❤️
11/12/2023, 19:19 - Cat: You too 🤗💝💝💝💝 I miss you already ❤️
11/12/2023, 19:22 - +44 7843 771944: Miss you too. Hope the rest of the fit goes better. Love you
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11/12/2023, 22:40 - Cat: Good night my future husband 💝
11/12/2023, 22:40 - Cat: Wish u were next to me
11/12/2023, 22:40 - +44 7843 771944: Good night Catherine. Love you with my whole ❤️. Same 😘
12/12/2023, 06:47 - Cat: You deleted this message
12/12/2023, 06:59 - +44 7843 771944: Mornin' Catherine ❤️
You ok?
12/12/2023, 07:02 - +44 7843 771944: Hope you slept well 😘. I woke up early again so gone in early. I quite like finishing early to be honest. Less time there with company lol
12/12/2023, 07:03 - +44 7843 771944: How was your cult leader thing?
12/12/2023, 07:23 - Cat: Fab 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
12/12/2023, 07:23 - Cat: Honestly I was just peeing and thought, oh man, I miss him so much
12/12/2023, 07:24 - Cat: Like, u were quite depressing this weekend and it was good for both of us to have a night alone I think
12/12/2023, 07:24 - Cat: But now I wish I could stop by ur work on my dog walk or something. Just see u for a bit 🥰
12/12/2023, 07:24 - +44 7843 771944: Miss you too, sorry I seemed bummed out 😔.
12/12/2023, 07:25 - Cat: Love you always fab, probably even at the times when I'm kot aware of it and don't look very lovey
12/12/2023, 07:25 - +44 7843 771944: You always look lovely 😘
12/12/2023, 07:25 - +44 7843 771944: Love you too
12/12/2023, 07:25 - Cat: Hope ur day goes drama free
12/12/2023, 07:25 - Cat: I'm trying to connect rhis Instagram app to the database it's not straight forward
12/12/2023, 07:26 - Cat: The new version is totally different from what the guy did in the tutorial
12/12/2023, 07:26 - Cat: Oh man, I need coffee I'm dying
12/12/2023, 07:26 - Cat: Still haven't bought any
12/12/2023, 07:30 - +44 7843 771944: Deliveroo?
12/12/2023, 07:31 - +44 7843 771944: I'm sure you'll get there, just do that and your course, don't procrastinate
12/12/2023, 07:31 - +44 7843 771944: ❤️
12/12/2023, 10:22 - Cat: Just ordered my first ever subway sandwich
12/12/2023, 10:22 - Cat: Let's see how that goes ....
12/12/2023, 10:22 - +44 7843 771944: Lol, the sweet onion sauce is the nicest
12/12/2023, 10:22 - Cat: Shit wish u had told me sooner
12/12/2023, 10:23 - Cat: Or I had told u sooner, lol
12/12/2023, 10:23 - Cat: Miss u
12/12/2023, 10:23 - +44 7843 771944: Miss you too
12/12/2023, 10:23 - Cat: VID-20231212-WA0006.mp4 (file attached)
12/12/2023, 10:23 - Cat: Hope ur day is going better 💓
12/12/2023, 10:23 - Cat: Loool I saw the 😂
12/12/2023, 10:23 - +44 7843 771944: Presses wrong one lol
12/12/2023, 10:23 - Cat: U OK?
12/12/2023, 10:26 - +44 7843 771944: Dan asked if this was my new starting time now (7am) in a shitty way and made it sound like I can't go an hour early, but i don't know if he meant from now on and if I wake up early I should stay home, or today too.  I only came in a half hour before they did.
12/12/2023, 10:50 - Cat: Pick ur battles my dear ❤️ Ive known u for so long now,  and u can see things going south. Just try to keep calm and professional until u have a new job lined up. Hopefully with therapy and all that introspection u re doing , next time round u will enter the job with clear expecting on both sides, I.e. I work, u pay me, we have a business agreement. You put emotions into this little sweat shop that's why it's hurting you and making u mad and u don't know why. Just keep emotions out of work from now on and you will be fine 🤗🤗🤗🤗
12/12/2023, 11:10 - Cat: So I just found out that I love the supremo sandwoch
12/12/2023, 11:10 - Cat: That's great news, it's something I can probably find anywhere when starving
12/12/2023, 11:11 - +44 7843 771944: Careful, Jared has aids 😂
12/12/2023, 11:38 - Cat: 😱
12/12/2023, 11:38 - Cat: What?
12/12/2023, 12:13 - +44 7843 771944: The subway south park episode
12/12/2023, 12:55 - Cat: Oh, maybe I should watch that one again...
12/12/2023, 16:31 - Cat: VID-20231212-WA0009.mp4 (file attached)
Please do this me 🤤
12/12/2023, 16:42 - +44 7843 771944: Only if you pull that face
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Would that turn you on?
12/12/2023, 17:01 - +44 7843 771944: Probably 🤷😂. Doesn't take much
12/12/2023, 17:20 - +44 7843 771944: Gonna game later, if you want to chat beforehand ❤️?
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13/12/2023, 07:17 - Cat: Must have been a good game, hope you still love me ❤️
13/12/2023, 07:18 - +44 7843 771944: Morning Catherine ❤️. 
You ok? Of course, why wouldn't I 😛
13/12/2023, 07:23 - Cat: Just been very quiet
13/12/2023, 07:23 - Cat: How is ur brother?
13/12/2023, 07:23 - +44 7843 771944: Only just woke up lol.
13/12/2023, 07:24 - +44 7843 771944: Yeah he's alright, was working on his car till late, I went bed at 12 and they were still going lol
13/12/2023, 07:24 - +44 7843 771944: Sleep ok?
13/12/2023, 07:24 - Cat: Woke up at 4 and been overthinking something that happened at work
13/12/2023, 07:25 - Cat: Then I turned on my laptop to research that thing and initially panicked because I thought I was wrong, and they were right bit now I'm sure I'm not wrong but it's too late, they already think they are right and it looks petty if I pick up that discussion again now
13/12/2023, 07:28 - +44 7843 771944: What thing?
13/12/2023, 08:03 - Cat: Mever mind
13/12/2023, 08:03 - Cat: Now I'm passed off at rhe dog
13/12/2023, 08:04 - Cat: Speak later
13/12/2023, 08:06 - +44 7843 771944: Ok, hope your day gets better 🤞. Love you Catherine ❤️
13/12/2023, 09:31 - Cat: Miss you Fab ❤️
13/12/2023, 09:49 - +44 7843 771944: Miss you too 🥰. Morning going any better now?
13/12/2023, 10:18 - Cat: Not really, but it's the usual
13/12/2023, 10:19 - Cat: How is urs going?
13/12/2023, 10:19 - +44 7843 771944: Not too bad, getting plenty done. Alone again lol
13/12/2023, 10:31 - Cat: U love it I bet
13/12/2023, 10:51 - Cat: Hey do u wanna video for a bit while u work?
13/12/2023, 10:51 - Cat: Don't wanna crush ur flow but I'm soooo bored
13/12/2023, 11:07 - +44 7843 771944: null
13/12/2023, 13:15 - Cat: I'm so bored and I miss you 😭😭😭😭😭
13/12/2023, 13:15 - Cat: I mean plz don't come this week its a mess here wirh the kitchen
13/12/2023, 13:15 - Cat: I just miss u
13/12/2023, 13:18 - +44 7843 771944: Miss you too 😘
13/12/2023, 14:17 - Cat: Just scheduled a one on one with the ceo
13/12/2023, 14:17 - Cat: Shitting my pants
13/12/2023, 14:17 - Cat: Tons of anxiety
13/12/2023, 14:32 - +44 7843 771944: You'll be fine, plan what you want to say, have your ideas and apps ready. 
You're wasted there, they aren't utilising your skills and torpedo them at every opportunity ❤️
13/12/2023, 16:15 - +44 7843 771944: How's it going wanna call?
13/12/2023, 18:16 - Cat: Hey sorry just saw this now
13/12/2023, 18:16 - Cat: Busy day
13/12/2023, 18:16 - Cat: I feel and look like shit
13/12/2023, 18:18 - +44 7843 771944: It's ok, you always look delicious to me 🤤
13/12/2023, 18:35 - +44 7843 771944: null
13/12/2023, 18:45 - +44 7843 771944: Are you ok? Gonna jump in shower eat then probably game, would be nice speak to you for a bit, miss you 😘.
13/12/2023, 18:48 - Cat: Oh ok
13/12/2023, 18:49 - Cat: Feeling pretty down
13/12/2023, 18:49 - +44 7843 771944: Maybe I can help in some way? ❤️
13/12/2023, 18:50 - Cat: I don't think I wanna talk about it, but if u wanna call and just chat random shit about politics or psychology or ur feelings that might distract me
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13/12/2023, 19:40 - Cat: You deleted this message
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13/12/2023, 20:05 - +44 7843 771944: He still has those crazy puppy eyes sometimes when he's on his back 😂
13/12/2023, 20:20 - Cat: Yepppp 🥰
14/12/2023, 11:40 - +44 7843 771944: Hey, I woke up late this morning and they only just went off to site in the van.
How're you? How's your day? Sleep ok? 
Love you ❤️
Xxx
14/12/2023, 13:13 - +44 7843 771944: You alright? 😘
14/12/2023, 15:37 - Cat: Hey yea
14/12/2023, 15:37 - Cat: Sorry just not checked the phone all day
14/12/2023, 15:37 - Cat: How r u?
14/12/2023, 15:39 - +44 7843 771944: Yeah ok, was worried you were having a shit day. Wanna call in a little bit?
14/12/2023, 16:33 - Cat: null
14/12/2023, 16:34 - Cat: null
14/12/2023, 16:35 - Cat: Whenever u want ❤️
14/12/2023, 16:47 - +44 7843 771944: Just got back
14/12/2023, 16:47 - +44 7843 771944: Gimme a few mins
14/12/2023, 16:57 - +44 7843 771944: null
14/12/2023, 17:09 - Cat: null
14/12/2023, 17:19 - +44 7843 771944: Can I have a shower at yours please? Save me getting dressed an extra 2 times
14/12/2023, 17:20 - +44 7843 771944: null
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15/12/2023, 15:34 - Cat: Hey sorry to disturb
15/12/2023, 15:34 - Cat: Misti is looking for his bike pump
15/12/2023, 15:35 - Cat: He says it was on ur desk in the shed
15/12/2023, 15:35 - Cat: Do u remember seeing it?
15/12/2023, 15:49 - +44 7843 771944: No sorry, should still be in the shed I definitely didn't move it out of there 🤷
15/12/2023, 16:22 - +44 7843 771944: Want me bring takeaway?
15/12/2023, 16:24 - Cat: I still have a pizza from last night for ahmad and musti wants to make stir-fry. Maybe just for us?
15/12/2023, 16:24 - Cat: Or we could go out on a date night???
15/12/2023, 16:25 - +44 7843 771944: Chicken gyro with halloumi, no salad no sauce?
15/12/2023, 16:37 - +44 7843 771944: Tread - netflix
Bulldozer tank rampage documentary lol
15/12/2023, 16:37 - +44 7843 771944: https://history.howstuffworks.com/american-history/killdozer.htm
15/12/2023, 17:04 - Cat: U sure u want gyro? U have that every night 😂
15/12/2023, 17:05 - +44 7843 771944: Too late now, got us a mini feast, with desert and breakfast ❤️
15/12/2023, 17:05 - Cat: 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
15/12/2023, 17:05 - Cat: Ull be here soon.
15/12/2023, 17:06 - Cat: ?
15/12/2023, 17:06 - +44 7843 771944: Nah hour or two, can eat then go out if you like ❤️
15/12/2023, 17:06 - Cat: Sounds perfect 🥰
15/12/2023, 17:06 - +44 7843 771944: I'll have mine here, has salad so can't really be warmed up
15/12/2023, 17:06 - Cat: I'm busy coding, but will finish wien u come ❤️
15/12/2023, 17:06 - +44 7843 771944: Can have desert with you though
15/12/2023, 17:06 - Cat: Love you so much 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
15/12/2023, 17:07 - +44 7843 771944: I love you too ❤️
15/12/2023, 17:07 - +44 7843 771944: Catherine 😘
15/12/2023, 17:07 - Cat: See u soon 😘
15/12/2023, 17:07 - +44 7843 771944: See you soon 😉
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15/12/2023, 17:23 - +44 7843 771944: Those cats are fucking ugly lol
15/12/2023, 17:23 - +44 7843 771944: The bald breed I mean <This message was edited>
15/12/2023, 17:38 - Cat: 100% agree, but is that really the only thing wrong with this video?
15/12/2023, 17:41 - +44 7843 771944: I didn't want to sound like a bastard 🤷😂
15/12/2023, 18:09 - +44 7843 771944: Waiting on a weed drop around 6.45 then will head to you
15/12/2023, 19:12 - Cat: K
15/12/2023, 19:19 - +44 7843 771944: On way ❤️
16/12/2023, 11:07 - +44 7843 771944: How's it going?
17/12/2023, 16:13 - Cat: Had such a great time this weekend ❤️❤️❤️❤️
17/12/2023, 16:13 - Cat: Miss you already 🤗🤗😘😙
17/12/2023, 16:43 - +44 7843 771944: It was awesome 🥰. Hope the rest of yours goes well and productively ❤️
17/12/2023, 16:43 - +44 7843 771944: Miss you too 😘
17/12/2023, 19:56 - Cat: Yea,just reading stuff and light coding
17/12/2023, 19:56 - Cat: U probably gaming 😘
17/12/2023, 19:57 - Cat: Hope u have a chill evening ❤️ love you loads and loads and more every day 💖❤️💖❤️💖❤️
17/12/2023, 20:18 - +44 7843 771944: Living the dream
17/12/2023, 20:18 - +44 7843 771944: You too, love you more than anything ❤️
This weekend was great 🥰
17/12/2023, 20:25 - +44 7843 771944: Can't print that thing unless you connect your Amazon to it
18/12/2023, 06:36 - Cat: How do I do that?
18/12/2023, 06:36 - Cat: Remind me Tuesday
18/12/2023, 06:37 - Cat: Just took the test, and it's negative!!!!! 💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻🥳🥳🥳🥳
18/12/2023, 07:12 - +44 7843 771944: Need log in on my computer, print it, log out
18/12/2023, 07:12 - +44 7843 771944: Will try
18/12/2023, 07:12 - +44 7843 771944: Congratulations 🎉❤️
18/12/2023, 07:12 - +44 7843 771944: Morning Catherine 🌞
18/12/2023, 07:12 - +44 7843 771944: Hope you have a great day
18/12/2023, 07:12 - +44 7843 771944: Musti will probs need his uniform and they'll both need duvets
18/12/2023, 15:18 - Cat: Good point, thanks
18/12/2023, 15:19 - Cat: May I share ur duvet plz ☺️
18/12/2023, 15:19 - Cat: Miss you ❤️ hope u re having a good day. Lots of love 🤗🤗🤗😙😙😙😙
18/12/2023, 15:37 - +44 7843 771944: Miss you too, yeah is ok. Opticians said my eyes aren't bad apparently.
Love you ❤️
18/12/2023, 15:37 - +44 7843 771944: Of course 🙄😂
18/12/2023, 17:20 - Cat: U free to talk?
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18/12/2023, 19:02 - +44 7843 771944: I might have a 5am start Wednesday
18/12/2023, 19:02 - +44 7843 771944: You might have to let yourself out
18/12/2023, 19:14 - Cat: Oh wow, wtf
18/12/2023, 19:14 - Cat: Why 5am?
18/12/2023, 19:14 - +44 7843 771944: McDonald's
18/12/2023, 19:14 - Cat: And dontworry, wr can do that
18/12/2023, 19:14 - +44 7843 771944: You can let yourselves out
18/12/2023, 19:14 - Cat: But I doubt u wanna come with us then?
18/12/2023, 19:15 - Cat: Miss u, can I see u again?
18/12/2023, 19:15 - +44 7843 771944: Just about jump in shower and have food cooking
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18/12/2023, 19:16 - +44 7843 771944: I don't want to commit to it but I'd like to still go. I know that's a shit answer.
18/12/2023, 19:16 - Cat: Good good I'm pleased 😂😘
18/12/2023, 19:16 - Cat: K, just walk us there tomorrow ans we find out when we re there if u want to stay and they have space
18/12/2023, 19:37 - +44 7843 771944: Not a problem 😘
19/12/2023, 00:31 - +44 7843 771944: Brother said yes to coming round at some point with both nephews
Hope rest of your evening went ok and your dreams are sweet ❤️. Love you
19/12/2023, 06:19 - Cat: Great, i lookforward to seeing them all 🤗💖💃🏻
19/12/2023, 06:20 - Cat: Hey today can u please remind me to print out the return label and also, may I please borrow ur Christmas jumper? I need to wear something christmassy for the Raincoat virtual Christmas p arty
19/12/2023, 10:24 - Cat: K, so just found out I can't bring plus one 😕
19/12/2023, 10:54 - +44 7843 771944: No worries, I have early start anyway
19/12/2023, 10:54 - +44 7843 771944: Doubt they want the only attractive woman there bringing a fella 😂
19/12/2023, 10:55 - +44 7843 771944: Yeah you can borrow it, of course 😘
19/12/2023, 11:23 - Cat: Love you soooo much
19/12/2023, 11:52 - +44 7843 771944: Love you too. Looking forward to seeing you briefly later 😘
19/12/2023, 15:38 - Cat: Me too 🤗🤗🤗🤗 can't wait ❤️
19/12/2023, 15:55 - Cat: Cam u tell me ur postcode again plz
19/12/2023, 15:55 - Cat: And house number
19/12/2023, 15:55 - +44 7843 771944: Flat 4 49 Florence Street Newcastle-under-Lyme ST52BH
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19/12/2023, 16:17 - Cat: I'm in a virtual christmas party
19/12/2023, 16:18 - +44 7843 771944: Don't forget duvets and the other thing
19/12/2023, 16:18 - Cat: Gosh u re right thanks
19/12/2023, 16:52 - Cat: I'm not bringing anything for me, we will leave tomorrow at 6 am or so and I don't plan to shower (ur place is wayyyy too cold 😘)
19/12/2023, 16:58 - +44 7843 771944: It's boiling here if you like
19/12/2023, 17:11 - +44 7843 771944: It's nice and toasty, got it at 20° ready for you 😛
19/12/2023, 17:11 - +44 7843 771944: I have to be at workshop for 6am so will be leaving around 5.45am
19/12/2023, 17:21 - +44 7843 771944: Toothbrushes
19/12/2023, 17:56 - Cat: We re downstairs
19/12/2023, 17:58 - Cat: null
19/12/2023, 20:10 - Cat: Hey just stepped out for some vape
19/12/2023, 20:10 - Cat: How is jt going?
19/12/2023, 20:11 - Cat: null
19/12/2023, 20:12 - Cat: Well this is going great 😂
19/12/2023, 20:12 - Cat: Was gonna ask if u can come get us soon ish?
19/12/2023, 20:25 - +44 7843 771944: null
19/12/2023, 20:26 - +44 7843 771944: Want me to wander down now?
19/12/2023, 20:35 - +44 7843 771944: null
19/12/2023, 20:38 - +44 7843 771944: null
19/12/2023, 20:39 - +44 7843 771944: On way
19/12/2023, 20:39 - Cat: Np
19/12/2023, 20:39 - Cat: Take ur time
19/12/2023, 20:39 - Cat: We started another game
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19/12/2023, 20:47 - +44 7843 771944: Sound, I'm outside, no rush
19/12/2023, 20:51 - Cat: Rhanks
19/12/2023, 20:51 - Cat: I do wanna go home
19/12/2023, 20:51 - Cat: Just need to time it right
19/12/2023, 20:51 - +44 7843 771944: Well I'm by subway
19/12/2023, 20:52 - +44 7843 771944: Whenever you're ready 👍
19/12/2023, 20:52 - Cat: So it doesn't look too abrupt right after thr game fhat musti and me are likely to win
19/12/2023, 20:52 - +44 7843 771944: That's fine. No rush like I said
19/12/2023, 21:41 - Cat: Will make us look like dicks if
20/12/2023, 05:45 - +44 7843 771944: Shit can you do me a favour and open the Washing machine please before you leave. Don't need fuck about with any of it ❤️
20/12/2023, 05:56 - Cat: Yes no worried
20/12/2023, 05:56 - Cat: What's rhe password plz for ur PC, I need to print out label
20/12/2023, 05:58 - Cat: null
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20/12/2023, 07:07 - Cat: We are home 🤗
20/12/2023, 07:07 - Cat: Thank u for last night
20/12/2023, 07:08 - Cat: I miss u already ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
20/12/2023, 07:21 - +44 7843 771944: Glad you got back ok and quick. Love you ❤️
20/12/2023, 07:32 - Cat: Love you too Fab. Hope today goes better for you 💝🤗
20/12/2023, 07:33 - Cat: I took most of ur laundry put but there wasn't enough room to put it up nicely
20/12/2023, 08:17 - Cat: Can u remember to bring yhr hair cutting thing when u come on weekend?
20/12/2023, 11:21 - +44 7843 771944: Will try to yeah ❤️
20/12/2023, 11:22 - +44 7843 771944: As long as it's not festering in a contained unit it's all good. Nice one 😘
20/12/2023, 11:22 - +44 7843 771944: You too 🤞
20/12/2023, 11:32 - Cat: Right now I so wanna hug you and kiss you tenderly and look into ur eyes and stroke your hair
20/12/2023, 13:30 - Cat: Really look forward so much to just chilling with u for few days without agenda 🥰 will be good for both of us
20/12/2023, 15:21 - Cat: How is ur day going?
20/12/2023, 17:03 - +44 7843 771944: Just woke up, fell asleep when got back. Was good till end then shit. You?
20/12/2023, 17:10 - Cat: Oh my what happened?
20/12/2023, 17:11 - Cat: I'm pissed off at ahmad otherwise all good here
20/12/2023, 17:24 - Cat: I need like a nanny a few hours a week. Do j know anyone looking for part time work who can handle ahmad?
20/12/2023, 17:32 - +44 7843 771944: Can't be arsed go into it. Had a wank job that turned to shit in the last hour
20/12/2023, 17:32 - +44 7843 771944: What's he done now?
20/12/2023, 17:32 - +44 7843 771944: No sorry :-/
20/12/2023, 18:58 - Cat: I'll tell u when u re not already pissed off 🤗😘
20/12/2023, 18:58 - Cat: Try and do the focus on the room thing
20/12/2023, 18:59 - Cat: Go to ur island
20/12/2023, 18:59 - Cat: Count ur blessings (hint: its ME 😋💖)
20/12/2023, 19:09 - +44 7843 771944: I was throwing ladders, bits of doors, clamps, the works earlier. My island was the bikini atoll earlier 😂🙄. 
I'm definitely not better yet.
20/12/2023, 19:09 - +44 7843 771944: You are a blessing. I love you
20/12/2023, 20:05 - Cat: Wannavideo for a bit?
20/12/2023, 20:05 - Cat: Let me cheer u up
20/12/2023, 20:30 - +44 7843 771944: null
20/12/2023, 21:06 - +44 7843 771944: I'm sorry 😔
20/12/2023, 21:33 - Cat: I want to hold you and stroke u and take ur pain and rage away. But I can't, u just turn it all towards me when I make myself available
20/12/2023, 22:01 - +44 7843 771944: I'm sorry, the sofa thing was a bit triggering for me, I think that's part of why I responded how I did. Can we talk about it tomorrow when I'm calmer please. 
I love you
20/12/2023, 22:01 - +44 7843 771944: I know I was borderlining and I'm sorry. I see it
20/12/2023, 22:11 - Cat: I'll give u space happily but not sure it's making any difference
20/12/2023, 22:26 - +44 7843 771944: It can take a year and a half to fix this if I'm lucky 😔
20/12/2023, 22:26 - +44 7843 771944: You make all the difference
20/12/2023, 22:31 - Cat: I could be totally wrong, and forgive me if so
20/12/2023, 22:34 - Cat: But I think u see me or any serious girlfriend for that matter like the saviour who will be the mum u never had, who loves and comfort u and makes all booboos go away. And since u didn't get that from ur mum it's like u divert that rage at ur partner. Maybe it would help u to write a letter to ur mum.  Don't send it. Just write down everything that went wrong in ur life that she caused even indirectly and that makes u mad and tell her she sucks for not trying harder
20/12/2023, 23:13 - +44 7843 771944: You might be right. Maybe it would help. It's recommended to do shit like that in the book
20/12/2023, 23:13 - +44 7843 771944: I love you Catherine, thank you for trying to help me
21/12/2023, 11:01 - +44 7843 771944: Hey, you ok?
21/12/2023, 11:06 - +44 7843 771944: You said to remind you about Ahmed and doctors
21/12/2023, 11:19 - Cat: Thanks
21/12/2023, 11:19 - Cat: I just tried but I have to call between 7 and 10 and probably be on hold for 3 hours
21/12/2023, 11:19 - Cat: Will try again tomorrow
21/12/2023, 11:36 - +44 7843 771944: To be honest with a fresh head, I've thought about it and I don't think it's that, I think the sofa is a triggering subject for me, I've made a list of points that I would like to try and calmly convey to you about why I think I reacted the way I did. I would appreciate it if you would hear me out and then give me feedback on it at some point. I know I can't trust my own feelings.

You're still right about the mum thing in general but regarding the sofa I think that's it's own issue.

I love you ❤️
21/12/2023, 11:37 - +44 7843 771944: I've dug out that keyboard and mouse too
21/12/2023, 11:37 - +44 7843 771944: Going works do for 12.30
21/12/2023, 11:48 - Cat: Better to discuss over writing imo. Here is my take: 1. u mentioned a while ago that ud like to bring that sofa when u move back in.

 2. Now u re rightly worried that the dog will destroy it and want to hold on to it for as long as possible because u love it. 

3. I'm in dire need of a new one and currently have a skip outside meaning I can get rid of the current one easily and since u plan to move back here next spring might as well change it now so we have a proper sofa when thaine comes for Christmas and whoever else u wanna invite (Marco etx) 

4. I hear ur concerns about the dog but it's not like I encourage him to take the sofa apart and current sofa is already apart so it's easy access for him

5. I feel like u react too protective of a second hand sofa,even suggesting I buy a brand new one instead of taking the risk that the dog might damage it (not huge but not impossible either) 

6. I have paid for everything in this house myself and invited u to live here and share the running costs. These do not include wear and tear on my current inventory which u have and will continue to cause. From broken locks to bikes to doors the list is long of things u damaged and I replaced without even saying a word. 

7. In conclusion, living together means sharing, the good anf bad. if u can't even share a free handed down sofa while I am prepared to share everything I have with u it makes me think u are really not that invested in the relationship. Ud have me pay 500 quid for a new sofa so ur precious free one can sit in storage or u don't want to move back to be with the woman you love are just doing it for convenience
21/12/2023, 11:49 - +44 7843 771944: Ok by writing might be best
21/12/2023, 12:01 - +44 7843 771944: I'd like to try and calmly discuss my reaction to the sofa request.

1.
When you bought the sofa you have now, I hated it, it's a rubbish design, uncomfortable, they only sent you half of it and you were doing my head in and stressing out that much over it I spent 400 quid on it just to stop you railing and raging about it. 

2.
I resented that purchase, I never wanted it, I payed for it to make you happy and calm you down so I'd be less stressed by you going mad over the cushion being a month late etc. 
and I've fucking loathed that sofa ever since.

3.
Now the sofa I paid 400 quid for just to make you feel better is now completely trashed a year later by an animal that does what it wants whenever you specifically are not in the same room. 

5.
You told me about how rubbish and ugly my sofas are and how I'll have to throw them away if I move back in, till you actually look at them properly and realise they are quality and comfy despite the colour. I don't "love it", I just don't want the dog to trash it for no reason. 

6.
It felt like you then demanded I give you that sofa, I get its probably my borderline but I felt guilt tripped that if I don't just give you the only sofa I have (which Dan might not take back at a moments notice, leaving me without a sofa), you'll have to "spend a fortune" on a new one, which you don't have to do, as you have a dog, you should be looking for cheap second hand ones for about 50 quid that the dog can ruin without you wasting loads of money if you are determined to buy one rather than just wait a bit till the dog is better trained. I said "buy a new one" in anger. I'm not saying that you should.
Your dog ate 400 quid I didn't want to spend on something shit, and now I have one I like the dog is going to eat that too or I'm a selfish bastard basically. 

7.
Also are you gonna pay to rent a van to move this sofa to yours or is that something you're also expecting me to cover the cost of? which I can't as I'm skint. 
I don't want any favours off Dan currently like borrowing his van.
Saying that, my brother has access to a flatbed van thing we can maybe use for free, I'll ask him later. 

8.
Also, getting this sofa to yours before Christmas is going to be pretty much impossible now. Nobody wants to move a sofa this close to Christmas. Its heavy, metal frame recliners. It's Christmas eve Sunday. 

10. 
I am invested in the relationship, there is just left over resentment from that old sofa which is why I reacted the way I did.
I love you ❤️
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21/12/2023, 12:19 - Cat: 1. We bought that sofa for YOUR TV room, it was never intended to be mine. U kept moaning about the little brown one and we thought that putting a sofa there would make the room cozier. I ve bought literally every other item of furniture plus the house, so sorry, this  is the sort of thing Michelle would say
21/12/2023, 12:20 - +44 7843 771944: I don't want to fall out over a sofa. I just hope you can see from my point of view how the request might be taken badly. I'm looking at it from your point of view and I am being overly protective of a free sofa and I'm sorry for that
21/12/2023, 12:20 - Cat: 7. Yes u said trainer has a van, so I was not expecting y to pay for it. But if you want to move back in, ur stuff is obviously your responsibility
21/12/2023, 12:21 - +44 7843 771944: You bought a sofa you wanted, which I ended  up paying for. I never wanted that sofa. I'm sorry you feel that way. I'm trying to change
21/12/2023, 12:21 - +44 7843 771944: It is.
21/12/2023, 12:21 - Cat: I'm sorry u lost 300 quid on a bad sofa. I lost 30000 gbp on a bad idea of yours. And I m no longer holding this against u. But honestly I'm very put off by all this and would kindly request a few days space.
21/12/2023, 12:22 - +44 7843 771944: Ok. I love you Catherine ❤️
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21/12/2023, 12:36 - Cat: U 100% sure? U know me, I'm like fuck that, I dont need his sofa. I just feel like we re growing more and more apart as time goes by living separate and to me it's a huge symbolic gesture in the direction of permanent separate living arrangement if I buy a sofa now, New or used, its all my stuff now. It's not like we re living together anymore feels more like a sublet now 😞 sorry, this just bums me out and makes me hopeless. In my ajtistic little head I'm already thinking.... OK..... we ll continue to live separately for 18 months to 2 years and then when u re ready to share ur things with us again or sufficiently finally desperate ull come back. All this time my youth and beauty will start deteriorating and I'm just overthinking If it's really what I want in life, given that I give society as it is max of 5 years anyways
21/12/2023, 12:37 - +44 7843 771944: That's not the case ❤️
21/12/2023, 12:38 - +44 7843 771944: We love each other. We discussed the Portugal move and the stress that stemmed from my borderline. We never really discussed the sofa. I think that's why I was recycling over it
21/12/2023, 12:39 - +44 7843 771944: Will reply properly after work thing ❤️
21/12/2023, 16:43 - +44 7843 771944: Yes. I am 100 percent sure I love you 😂.
I'm half pissed now and I couldn't give a shit about the sofa, I love you and want to marry you.
I think your expectations of how a relationship moves forward are skewed. Moving in together might be a staple part in islam but in the rest of the world moving in together is a big step that takes time, or it has a tendancy to go horribly wrong. And we've already proved if my head isn't right it could end badly. Which I am sorry for but it is what it is ❤️, I know I caused a lot of harm and I don't want to repeat that to you or your children.

If you need the sofa as a symbol then take it ❤️. I don't want a free sofa to come between us. Just don't expect me to pay for another sofa if the dog wrecks this one too 🤷.

You need to stop with the overthinking us living separately for the moment, it's in both our best interests, all it takes is for us to have a bit of a shit day and we're fighting over a sofa.
Rushing into things like moving in again is the opposite of what all advice says and points too. You need to do some CBT if your own negative thoughts about that are getting the better of you, like I'm trying to do with my DBT. 

Me not wanting that fucking dog to ruin my 2nd, nice, sofa that didn't cost me 300 quid for something I despise, does not mean I don't love you or that I don't want to spend my life with you ❤️

And I thought I'd be back well before 18 months had passed, so I don't know where that time frame came from 🤷.
You look, and will continue to look beautiful in my eyes ❤️.
If it is all going to end in 5 years, society, etc, then we should make the most of it 😘. Not bicker over a sofa. 
I love you and am looking forward to spending Christmas with you, I have bought cocktails, mushrooms, a tree, I want to cook Christmas dinner and make love to you passionately throughout the festive period and revel in your company because I love you and you're my everything and my life partner that i want to spend what little time we have on this shit world with 😘
21/12/2023, 17:35 - +44 7843 771944: Hope you're ok. Love you xxx
21/12/2023, 20:47 - Cat: You deleted this message
21/12/2023, 21:01 - +44 7843 771944: 😔. I'm sorry for my borderline shit. I really am
21/12/2023, 21:02 - Cat: 😢❤️
21/12/2023, 21:04 - +44 7843 771944: I love you
21/12/2023, 21:15 - +44 7843 771944: We'll be fine, we just need to try not take everything so personally. Me especially ❤️.
I love you and we'll have an awesome Christmas. I promise 😘
22/12/2023, 09:57 - +44 7843 771944: Morning Catherine ❤️. 
Hope you're ok 😘
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22/12/2023, 11:22 - Cat: Morning Fab
22/12/2023, 11:22 - +44 7843 771944: Hey
22/12/2023, 11:22 - +44 7843 771944: You ok?
22/12/2023, 11:22 - Cat: Just got back from super stressful walk with ahmad and attila
22/12/2023, 11:22 - +44 7843 771944: Took Ahmed with you yeah?
22/12/2023, 11:23 - +44 7843 771944: A bold decision
22/12/2023, 11:23 - Cat: We re all muddy, ahmad just took bath now I need to bathe attila, then shower then back to studying
22/12/2023, 11:23 - +44 7843 771944: You ok though?
22/12/2023, 11:23 - Cat: Yea, I'll tell u later. Ahmad had hair cut, so only musti left to do now
22/12/2023, 11:23 - +44 7843 771944: Want me bring those trimmers still?
22/12/2023, 11:24 - +44 7843 771944: Love you❤️
22/12/2023, 11:29 - +44 7843 771944: You still want me to invite Marko round with my brother?
22/12/2023, 11:29 - +44 7843 771944: At some point, will need check when they're both free
22/12/2023, 13:13 - Cat: Yea sure would be nice
22/12/2023, 13:16 - +44 7843 771944: Also could I ask a favour please? I'm going to go Christmas shopping in a bit and get the food for Chris dinner and some bits for boys and you hopefully. 
I was going to bring tools and screws and other stuff too for any DIY you need doing, also that double camping chair for the shed so we can smoke comfortably outside, and other bits so you know I'm serious about us moving back in together ❤️.
I was wondering if I could get a lift with some of it please? Might do you good have a few hours away from kids and dog too 🤷. Could go for a lunch date in town?
22/12/2023, 13:24 - +44 7843 771944: My brother is coming soon to go shopping so I'll try sort out a day for the sofa then
22/12/2023, 14:09 - Cat: That sounds really nice actually, I would like that. Sunday morning?
22/12/2023, 14:10 - +44 7843 771944: Saturday would be better as Christmas eve Sunday but can do if you like? 😘
22/12/2023, 15:47 - +44 7843 771944: Got you something small I know you need for Christmas, and about to sort out the Christmas dinner stuff, and can take you out for a date but I'm still stuck as for what to get you a bit :-/
22/12/2023, 15:48 - +44 7843 771944: I'm shit at getting presents 🙄
22/12/2023, 15:49 - +44 7843 771944: Got the kids quite a bit. I including a jelly bean game like spin the bottle where some of the beans taste like garbage or vomit or something
22/12/2023, 16:35 - Cat: Looool
22/12/2023, 16:36 - +44 7843 771944: Got you summat else lol
22/12/2023, 16:36 - Cat: Really , please don't spend too much, u know I don't really care about Christmas
22/12/2023, 16:46 - +44 7843 771944: Got Mac and cheese stuff too
22/12/2023, 16:48 - Cat: Awww wish I could have that tonight! Just been on ubereats and can't find anything I wanna eat
22/12/2023, 16:48 - +44 7843 771944: Google restaurants in Congleton. Maybe summat in walking distance to collect from
22/12/2023, 19:17 - Cat: I feel sad
22/12/2023, 19:18 - +44 7843 771944: You always do when we're apart for more than a few days ❤️
22/12/2023, 19:19 - +44 7843 771944: I got all sorts for Christmas, cocktails, weed mushrooms, presents, Christmas dinner and we can have the afternoon to ourselves and go somewhere in castle for a nice meal. Build our love batteries up <This message was edited>
22/12/2023, 19:20 - +44 7843 771944: My brother said he can bring sofa after boxing day
22/12/2023, 19:24 - Cat: My love batteries are really low
22/12/2023, 19:24 - Cat: I'm sorry I just feel like crying and I don't know what's wrong with me
22/12/2023, 19:25 - +44 7843 771944: It's ok, we'll have a really nice week, I can do all the little jobs you want doing . Snuggle, go ice skating etc
22/12/2023, 19:25 - Cat: I just wanna die
22/12/2023, 19:26 - +44 7843 771944: Why you feel so bad? I'm sorry about the sofa thing but we'll be with each other soon. I was hoping come tomorrow ❤️
22/12/2023, 19:29 - Cat: I don't think I can talk about it
22/12/2023, 19:31 - +44 7843 771944: You normally get like this when love batteries are low and you are on your period. I love you and this week will be great ❤️
22/12/2023, 19:32 - Cat: Wanna call me and talk to me? I feel mute and dingy but I wonder how I'd feel seeing ur face
22/12/2023, 19:32 - Cat: In 10 min or so
22/12/2023, 19:33 - +44 7843 771944: Will's here, can we make it a half hour so I can get him go first?
22/12/2023, 19:37 - +44 7843 771944: Might be less
22/12/2023, 19:39 - Cat: K
22/12/2023, 19:39 - Cat: Thank u
22/12/2023, 19:39 - +44 7843 771944: Love you 😘
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22/12/2023, 20:35 - Cat: I'm sorry I can't communicate better
22/12/2023, 20:35 - +44 7843 771944: This is unreasonable and hurtful. 
I've apologised and tried to explain myself and what feeling led to my reaction.
I've put a lot of effort into making you and the boys happy for the holiday. That's why I needed the 2 days. One for work do and the other for Christmas shopping and to see my brother and will for the last time before Christmas. I didn't realise that made me such a bastard.
I hope you come around and don't just sit there overthinking it all negatively. That would be a complete waste of your time, my time, what little money I have, and both our holidays. 
After the shit that happened around last Christmas, which was my fault it's important for me to give them and you a nice one to remember that is unsullied by arguing. Maybe I'm so into it for my own guilt. I don't know. But I'm hurt right now
22/12/2023, 20:36 - +44 7843 771944: Its ok
22/12/2023, 20:36 - +44 7843 771944: I'm trying to hold it together, I'm more sad than angry.
22/12/2023, 20:37 - Cat: I'm also sad
22/12/2023, 20:37 - +44 7843 771944: Cancelling Christmas won't help with that
22/12/2023, 20:37 - Cat: I don't give a fuck about Christmas that helps
22/12/2023, 20:38 - Cat: Tomorrow night there is karaoke in some pub here. I was gonna ask u if u wanna come with me, so we can make fun of mongletonians
22/12/2023, 20:38 - +44 7843 771944: Not do I normally. As I said, I think my guilt has made me build up it's importance in my head
22/12/2023, 20:38 - +44 7843 771944: I'd love that 👍
22/12/2023, 20:38 - Cat: I appreciate all the effort and planning and fund u put into this, I really do
22/12/2023, 20:40 - +44 7843 771944: I've spent all day thinking about you and the kids
22/12/2023, 20:42 - Cat: U don't get how much u bum me out with ur little episodes. I withdraw when there is conflict. Its not just u, its everyone. I feel myself distancing emotionally so much when we have a disagreement and then don't have the proximity to remind me why we are spending so much time compromising, listening to one another, trying to understand the other. For me, physical closeness is my love language, take it away from me and the love dies pretty quick. I'm sorry it'd how I'm wired. I know all Intps I ve spoken to are the same. Out of sight, out of heart. I didn't ask u to come because I want to control or manipulate u. For me its really important to have regular interaction, even if it'd just a fleeting touch on the corridor on my way to the toilet, it makes all the difference for me.
22/12/2023, 20:43 - Cat: But then I see how much this request pisses u off, so my natural reaction is fuck that, I don't need a charity visit
22/12/2023, 20:44 - Cat: Which then in turn makes me even more distant
22/12/2023, 20:44 - Cat: I really wanted to cancel the whole Christmas and moving in and maybe even the relationship before I saw h
22/12/2023, 20:44 - Cat: U
22/12/2023, 20:44 - Cat: Then when I did see u, the tears that I've been holding in for days just came out and I missed you so much
22/12/2023, 20:45 - +44 7843 771944: I miss you too ❤️
22/12/2023, 20:45 - Cat: But it's OK. I ve got lots of work with uni anyways
22/12/2023, 20:46 - Cat: I'd rather u have time for ur mate and brother
22/12/2023, 20:46 - Cat: I'm not a controlling narcissist
22/12/2023, 20:46 - +44 7843 771944: I know it's how you're wired, I still love you regardless ❤️
22/12/2023, 20:46 - Cat: U do what u like, I really don't care anymore
22/12/2023, 20:46 - Cat: It always ends in heart ache
22/12/2023, 20:46 - +44 7843 771944: That's not productive language
22/12/2023, 20:47 - +44 7843 771944: I have heart ache now because you're triggering the shit out of my abandonment issues.  You trigger them so often and you said you'd try to stop doing this.
22/12/2023, 20:49 - +44 7843 771944: This is what drove me nuts before. You ending things on a whim every time you don't get what you want or something doesn't go your way which I get you can't help so much because of autism, or I do something stupid or borderline which half the time I can't help doing even though I see myself doing it now and that makes me feel like a piece of shit.
22/12/2023, 20:53 - +44 7843 771944: To be honest this is my shittest time of year, I lost all my grandparents in a month one on Christmas eve. I hate this holiday and I still want to make it nice for you and the kids, and help you with stuff that needs doing. 
If you'll let me do that tomorrow and for the next few weeks, sound. If not, that's upto you. I'm here for you, if you want me.
22/12/2023, 20:54 - +44 7843 771944: I'm going to do some exercises to try and sort my head out a bit. Let me know when or if you feel better, or not, upto you. I love you
22/12/2023, 21:05 - Cat: I'm torn between asking u to come and asking u to leave me and move on
22/12/2023, 21:05 - Cat: I really don't know what's best
22/12/2023, 21:07 - +44 7843 771944: You should just let me come tomorrow.
I'll ride up, we'll get past your withdrawal stage with some hugs and talking and whatnot,  we can go to the karaoke thing.
Then next morning can drive mine together, have lunch, pick stuff up, come back enjoy one another's company and remind ourselves why we're together ❤️
22/12/2023, 21:08 - +44 7843 771944: I can come early 🤷. Go for a dog walk
22/12/2023, 21:08 - +44 7843 771944: Like 10am or something <This message was edited>
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22/12/2023, 21:16 - Cat: It's fine, plz enjoy Christmas with ur friends
22/12/2023, 21:19 - +44 7843 771944: I have no fucking plans with my friends.
22/12/2023, 21:19 - +44 7843 771944: I planned to spend it all with you <This message was edited>
22/12/2023, 21:19 - +44 7843 771944: They're all off doing their things.  I want to spend it with my family. Which is you
22/12/2023, 21:25 - +44 7843 771944: Right now you're making decisions based on unhealthy and negative emotions and thoughts that you need to work on yourself, just as I'm trying to work on mine. You're on your period and need coddling and cuddling to bring your batteries up. Which I'm more than happy to do for most of the next two weeks.
This is effecting us both badly.
I was borderline over the sofa. I let my old negative emotions recycle and that led to strife between us and I'm sorry. I'm not fixed yet but I'm working on it. It was never going to be an overnight process.
22/12/2023, 21:25 - +44 7843 771944: Ending things right before Christmas is a shit idea and you promised to stop doing this.
22/12/2023, 21:37 - Cat: I'm really sorry
22/12/2023, 21:38 - Cat: I still love u, but we both need different things
22/12/2023, 21:39 - +44 7843 771944: You need someone to hold your hand 24/7. Nobody can do that. I at least try.
22/12/2023, 21:40 - +44 7843 771944: If you love me you'll stop with this and just let me come over tomorrow and stop ruining my sanity because you haven't seen me in 3 days and we had an argument over a sofa.
22/12/2023, 21:40 - +44 7843 771944: It's really unfair.
22/12/2023, 21:43 - Cat: U could have come 2 hours ago
22/12/2023, 21:43 - +44 7843 771944: I love you for fucks sake and you flip flop flip flop with our relationship after promising to be there and not do exactly that, why? because didn't get your way immediately about the sofa. And I didn't immediately brave the rain and wind in the dark to see you for a few hours to then be cast out first thing in the morning.
22/12/2023, 21:43 - Cat: Sorry. I really don't know what to say to u tomorrow. I was already hurt and upset when u called, now it's much worse
22/12/2023, 21:44 - +44 7843 771944: Because you're snowballing in your head.
22/12/2023, 21:44 - Cat: It's fine. U don't have to come.
22/12/2023, 21:44 - +44 7843 771944: You said don't come
22/12/2023, 21:45 - +44 7843 771944: We're supposed to have aome space. It was an agreed boundary. 2 days for shopping for you and your kids and one for a works do and friends is not too much to ask.
22/12/2023, 21:46 - Cat: U can have as much space as u like.
22/12/2023, 21:46 - +44 7843 771944: We had a plan. You feel shit, hormonal, sad and grumpy because of your period and I had a borderline episode which came at a shit time for you.
22/12/2023, 21:47 - +44 7843 771944: Oh my god....
22/12/2023, 21:47 - +44 7843 771944: Can you stop with that please.
22/12/2023, 21:47 - +44 7843 771944: Just please for the love of fucking god can we just have a normal nice fucking Christmas together for once in my life.
22/12/2023, 21:48 - Cat: But I'm not a booty call that u fan confidently squeeze between ur social and gaming commitments whenever it suits u
22/12/2023, 21:48 - +44 7843 771944: I set aside all that space for you!
22/12/2023, 21:48 - Cat: Look, I don't wanna fight
22/12/2023, 21:48 - Cat: I never asked u too
22/12/2023, 21:48 - +44 7843 771944: I was going to spend most of the holiday with you
22/12/2023, 21:48 - +44 7843 771944: I needed two days to fucking prepare
22/12/2023, 21:48 - Cat: Last time I remember we agreed ud come for a day or two then go home for a day or 2
22/12/2023, 21:48 - Cat: Anyways
22/12/2023, 21:49 - Cat: Look, I ve got my vibrator between my legs
22/12/2023, 21:49 - +44 7843 771944: After boxing day for maybe a day
22/12/2023, 21:49 - Cat: I'm trying to get off but I keep checking my phone which pisses me off even more. If I feel differently tomorrow about this I'll text u OK? I'm sorry. I'm a horrible person, it's all me. Good night
22/12/2023, 22:04 - Cat: Fuck sake I can't even get myself off
22/12/2023, 22:04 - Cat: U could have just come u were about to. I ruined it because I was being honest
22/12/2023, 22:04 - +44 7843 771944: We're supposed to have boundaries, right now they're being trampled on :-(
22/12/2023, 22:05 - Cat: Over the last 3 days 90% of my love for u has died. I saw ur face and how happy u were with ur Christmas prep and I thought he can pull this around. He is in a good mood
22/12/2023, 22:06 - +44 7843 771944: I was happy, looking forward to seeing you all
22/12/2023, 22:06 - Cat: Keep ur fucking boundaries stuff them into ur ass. I have some too. Sorry u spent money on the kids, hopefully Rorie and Arthur will enjoy the guns or maybe u can return them
22/12/2023, 22:06 - +44 7843 771944: Now I feel depressed as shit
22/12/2023, 22:06 - Cat: Enjoy ur boundaries fab
22/12/2023, 22:06 - Cat: I'm done
22/12/2023, 22:06 - +44 7843 771944: Oh my god. Look on the therapy chat.
22/12/2023, 22:06 - +44 7843 771944: Look at it, at the start
22/12/2023, 22:07 - +44 7843 771944: You're throwing away everything for nothing.
22/12/2023, 22:07 - +44 7843 771944: This is childish and spiteful. You ask me to change and do therapy and when I try to implement it you dump me.
22/12/2023, 22:09 - +44 7843 771944: You're displaying all the narcissistic traits of someone with autism freaking out. I'll leave you too it for a few days like you do for me when I'm being borderline. 
I love you Catherine. And I'm here if you want to see me ❤️.
22/12/2023, 22:10 - +44 7843 771944: Good night Catherine. I hope you come around. X
22/12/2023, 22:15 - Cat: All I needed was a hug after this ridiculous fight over ir precious sofa that ur boss had no use for and gave u for free saving him 20 quid in removal
22/12/2023, 22:16 - Cat: Now I don't need it anymore. Thanks, ur training worked.
22/12/2023, 22:16 - +44 7843 771944: You can have as many as you like.
22/12/2023, 22:16 - +44 7843 771944: What training?
22/12/2023, 22:16 - Cat: I'm not abusing u. I asked u yo come over and fix the mess u made a few days ago
22/12/2023, 22:17 - +44 7843 771944: I was going to tomorrow
22/12/2023, 22:17 - +44 7843 771944: I'm not a fucking slave to your timetable
22/12/2023, 22:17 - +44 7843 771944: The whole point of boundaries
22/12/2023, 22:17 - Cat: Bur u re too busy with will and what not, so I found a new way of dealing with my hurt. If I don't love u it doesn't hurt. Sorry u do get that.
22/12/2023, 22:17 - +44 7843 771944: Was that we do too much for each other the resent one anotjer
22/12/2023, 22:18 - +44 7843 771944: I'm not going to see him over Christmas. He has no family to spend it with either.
22/12/2023, 22:18 - Cat: As I said. Have as many boundaries as u like. I don't want anything from u.
22/12/2023, 22:18 - +44 7843 771944: This is petty. please just stop and think on things when you're hormones aren't fucked.
22/12/2023, 22:19 - Cat: It's sad ird ending just as we re both off for Christmas. But at least nobody is getting thrown around the kitchen and then arrested for imaginary assaults. So that's good at least
22/12/2023, 22:19 - +44 7843 771944: I've been really reasonable and tried to explain things and be logical as I can
22/12/2023, 22:19 - +44 7843 771944: Recycling
22/12/2023, 22:19 - +44 7843 771944: I'm trying to do what I've been advised to do. By you
22/12/2023, 22:22 - +44 7843 771944: Have boundaries and try to stick to them. You're the one going mental right now. I'm the one trying to hold things together after putting a fuck ton of effort into making you and the kids happy. While you spit on all my love and effort over a sofa.
I'm done for the night. 
Speak when your heads right. Or not.but that would be a complete fucking waste of what has the potential to be perfect.
22/12/2023, 22:23 - Cat: U don't understand me
22/12/2023, 22:23 - Cat: I'm not asking u to come because I want to exercise control
22/12/2023, 22:24 - +44 7843 771944: No you're asking because you need coddling like a child and if I don't jump you go mad at me.
22/12/2023, 22:25 - +44 7843 771944: I don't see you for 3 days and we have an argument over a sofa so now we're done? It's playground level shit
22/12/2023, 22:25 - +44 7843 771944: I'm borderlining. I need to stop
22/12/2023, 22:25 - +44 7843 771944: Talk tomorrow. Good night. I love you
22/12/2023, 22:25 - +44 7843 771944: Not replying till then.
22/12/2023, 22:25 - Cat: It'd because I'm hurt and sad and can't function each time u have a bpd episode. So I can either sit around in this state till u cam be arsed to make time in between video games to see and fuck me, or I can shut down my feelings for u in order to survive and function. U rr forcing me to do the latter. I'm sorry. I'd rather be in bed crying in ur arms, but that's too much to ask. And yes, I'm an emotionally immature child. It's a disability. I'm sorry.
22/12/2023, 22:25 - Cat: Don't reply at all
22/12/2023, 22:26 - +44 7843 771944: I'm fucking borderlining. I don't want to make things fucking worse
22/12/2023, 22:27 - +44 7843 771944: I love you.
22/12/2023, 22:27 - +44 7843 771944: Good night.
22/12/2023, 22:28 - Cat: Good luck with everything Fab. I don't know if I can ever just see u as a friend, there is too much history, dreams and deep feelings involved. I will block u and delete Yr number because I know I can't break my addiction to u
22/12/2023, 22:29 - +44 7843 771944: For fucks sake just wait till tomorrow
22/12/2023, 22:29 - +44 7843 771944: Fucking stop
22/12/2023, 22:29 - Cat: If we re ever both in stable relationships after few years I'd like to get in touch
22/12/2023, 22:29 - Cat: But not too soon. We re addicted to each other and not in a healthy way
22/12/2023, 22:29 - +44 7843 771944: No you are!
22/12/2023, 22:29 - +44 7843 771944: 3 fucking day
22/12/2023, 22:29 - +44 7843 771944: Days
22/12/2023, 22:30 - +44 7843 771944: And your head's fucked.
22/12/2023, 22:30 - Cat: Ull always be my first true love and first real relationships
22/12/2023, 22:30 - Cat: Nobody can take that away from u
22/12/2023, 22:30 - +44 7843 771944: Stop fucking talking like this.
22/12/2023, 22:30 - +44 7843 771944: Just stop!
22/12/2023, 22:30 - Cat: Ok
22/12/2023, 22:30 - +44 7843 771944: Please for the love of god just stop
22/12/2023, 22:30 - +44 7843 771944: Talk tomorrow. Please.
22/12/2023, 22:30 - +44 7843 771944: Not now
22/12/2023, 22:31 - Cat: I hope u get better with ur therapy 💓 I wanna say I hope u find someone to spend the apocalypse with, but that would he a lie. I'm so mad we can't make it work
22/12/2023, 22:31 - +44 7843 771944: You're the one stopping it
22/12/2023, 22:31 - +44 7843 771944: I'm trying my fucking heart out to stop this fucking insanity
22/12/2023, 22:32 - +44 7843 771944: And you keep pushing and pushing
22/12/2023, 22:32 - +44 7843 771944: If you'd just held your shit together like a big girl for one more day like we planned none of this shit would have happened
22/12/2023, 22:32 - Cat: I can't go like this another day, I'm sorry. Been feeling like shit since the sofa thing. Haven't eaten, gotten off or smiled in days. It's draining me. I m sorry.
22/12/2023, 22:32 - +44 7843 771944: Just stop. Let both take a step back and come at it when I'm not in a fucking rage and you aren't on your fucking period.
22/12/2023, 22:32 - Cat: U were the one who caused this fight
22/12/2023, 22:33 - Cat: I'm done with the period
22/12/2023, 22:33 - +44 7843 771944: Lol. Apparently not.
22/12/2023, 22:33 - +44 7843 771944: You started it Tuesday
22/12/2023, 22:33 - +44 7843 771944: You aren't done with it.
22/12/2023, 22:34 - +44 7843 771944: It supposed be a week right? It's not just about the blood I thought?
22/12/2023, 22:34 - Cat: It's nearly gone, the hormones are back to normal after day one
22/12/2023, 22:34 - +44 7843 771944: Gestures at your behaviour*
22/12/2023, 22:34 - +44 7843 771944: You sure....
22/12/2023, 22:34 - Cat: Sure. Blame my period
22/12/2023, 22:34 - Cat: Whatever
22/12/2023, 22:35 - +44 7843 771944: And your autism and demanding nature
22/12/2023, 22:35 - +44 7843 771944: That is what this is.
22/12/2023, 22:36 - +44 7843 771944: That other time when I came round to empt your kitchen. Spent all day working hardly saw you then you were shitty with me for not spending time with you. 
You put unreasonable and unrealistic expectations on me then throw a fit when I don't meet them.
22/12/2023, 22:37 - +44 7843 771944: I need to stop now. 
Good night. 
Muted. 
I love you. Despite this bullshit. 
And I'm sorry for being a cunt about the sofa.
22/12/2023, 22:39 - Cat: Its OK. U are mentally ill and I'm autistic. Its nobody's fault. I hope u remember the good times. I will.
22/12/2023, 22:41 - Cat: You were my first love. Please take care of yourself and don't forget to eat well ❤️. Remember the island when u get mad. Good bye.
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22/12/2023, 22:45 - Cat: And one more thing: it would have been ur kitchen too. A brand new one that u didn't have to pay anything towards. Stop acting like helping ur girlfriend whose house u plan to move into move a few bits is the greatest act of charity. It's what partners do, and it's not like I sat there with my feet up. I've been moving shit and painting walls for the last 2 weeks while u were gaming. But enough with the resentment. Good bye.
22/12/2023, 22:46 - Cat: I'm smoking my last cigarette before blocking and deleting you, hoping ull come around. But I want to control and discipline me, and I'm done being ur toy.
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